Thursday, October 30, 2008

Recoving well from last week

The first experience of chemo was a positive one. Last Thursday was a life changing time with all the new information I had to learn about my situation and the lovely ladies I met as the day progressed. I was profoundly moved by how cancer radically changes your world view and your everyday tasks. I am grateful for the eyes to see such beauty and grace in the faces of those I met on the 7th floor of Walter Reed.

As the day started I sat with all the other chemo patients and our drugs were delived from the pharmacy. When everything was ready my nurse had me hold the bags of cocktails to read them back to her for verifcation on the type and amount of drugs we were going to put into my body. I was scared, awed and knew I had to do this. It was a life changing moment. It was so nice to walk through this with my husband Jim. He is an amazing man who God often uses to stabilize me in a profound way.

In the recovery process I had a bit of constipation due to the strong drugs so I just worked through it all. I just didn't feel good. Between the hysterectomy hot and cold flashes and the effects of the Taxol and Carboplatin I was coping. It brought me to a place of just taking each moment at a time. I kinda feel like I am on a huge river ride and I am going with the current as God holds me in the boat.

So now a week out from my first chemo I'm recovering well and often I feel the drug side effects throughout my day. The body is a remarkable creation of God and I have been thinking and praying good thoughts over my situation for God's purpose and plan. This cancer is so much bigger than me - I know this without a shadow of a doubt.

Today is a good day! I appreciate your love and support! hugs - k

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

1st chemo in the morning

I am full of things to say but don't know what to share exactly. I am emotional yet calm, nervous yet at peace, tired yet alert. Today I had the surgery to implant my port for the chemo drugs and it went very well. It was quick and neat. Jim was a great support to me as well.

As tomorrow approaches I am asking for God to hide me in the shadow of His wings (Psalm 17) and for His strengh, peace and courage. I will try and have Jim post something tomorrow night and a possible email to go out to you for an update. If there isn't one by evening we just need a bit of time to get settled in. I love you all...k

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Here I go....

For my first entry into MY PINK THREADS I hope and plan to share my journey through my cancer! I am going to Walter Reed in the morning with Jim to take another step into my cancer recovery. I am encouraged overall and know without a doubt I am in the middle of God's will.



I would like to be doing something else right now but this is what the Lord has for me and for my family. And I was talking with HIM about this and asked if I could just be Star Trekked - beemed to September of '09 and not have to go through all of this. And He said back to me...with a whisper I am going to walk all the way with YOU my daughter. This is for you to see ME and know ME in ways you have never experienced with ME. The bottom has not fallen out I have YOU in MY Palm, Khristina. I love and know exactly where and how you are!!



I feel assured in my doctors, our plan for my recovery and we have prepared in advance for the known things and are trusting in God for the unknown things. It means the world to Jim and I that we have you in our lives. We are so grateful to have you make this journey with us.