It has been three weeks since my last entry...it has been full and challenging. I am doing well overall. To bring you up to date my 2nd chemo was on November 13th. It was a good treatment up at Walter Reed. The weekend before I decided to cut my hair very short due to the fact that the carboplatin was making it slowly fall out. It was very freeing and ego boosting for me....let me explain.
On November 9th when I cut my hair my daughter woke up from her nap to a new Mommie. And when she saw me she came up and touched my head and declared - "Perfect Mommie" while patting my head. She brought so much joy and acceptance to my soul I cried.
It totally helped me see myself in a new light. In the light of how God views me and sees me. I am not defined just by my outward beauty alone but by my attitude and love for Him and others. His love is what makes me so courageous and full of life. I believe that is where true beauty is born. My journey with cancer is redefining how I view beauty, health, and self image.
As I have been going out into the public with my new doo I have a confidence I have never had. I was nervous about people staring but that really hasn't happened. I think this is so due to how I feel inside. I feel so forunate to be in a recovery plan for my cancer I cannot express how glad I am to be alive and well!! Everyday is a gift to me and another one to be with my family and friends. I am so grateful to God that the docs caught it when they did.
